So I decided I wanted to see what it was like to have a one night stand/ hookup with a guy at college, which is probably the worst idea I have ever had. Because I see this person every other day and it is awkward as hell between us. I wrote a post about it on tumblr to describe the whole experience. This event occurred October 2, 2016, got to the post if you want to know more. Anyway, so the other night, I get a text from this random ass number that's not stored in my phone. It says: "Hey are you upset with me?" I'm thinking this my friend cause he just recently got a new phone and his new number ain't stored in my phone. So I'm like "What? Why would I be?" Then I get a reply that says: "Not sure, just wondering. Not the best night." SO I really start thinking now cause if this was my friend, he wouldn't be saying no shit like this, so I go and look at my other messages and my friend's number is not the one I'm talking to.
Meanwhile, at the time it was late asf and I am high, chilling with my friends watching "Dazed and Confused" and so I turn to one of my friends and am like: "Oh shit. I think I'm talking to Bugman cause his I deleted his number after that dumb fuckery and that is what me and my friends call him (cause he had some weird ass bug on his jacket that my friends couldn't identify so they call him bugman). Anyway, she's like oh shit and so am I, but I don't know for sure if it's him, so I text: "Who is this?" and for sure, he says his name. I'm like damn. Whole time thought this nigga was someone else. So I get to rethinking the whole situation, cause we talked about what happened and he was telling me why he asked me to stop and all this other shit and so I replied with: "Oh ok. No I'm not upset with you, just a little frustrated. Still feel like everything is weird." He replies: "Frustrated how?" I say that "I feel like there's more to the story that you're not telling me" and he says: "Not really. That was it. besides other personal things that were going on that may have distracted me. But that was all that was going on with me." So I get to thinking about shit cause I'm high and that's what I do. I start thinking if like the shit he ain't telling me is concerning me and like physical attraction shit cause I do have some low self-esteem, shit we ain't all perfect. So I start to ask if it had anything to do with that but before I send it, he send me another text asking if he possibly ask me a question. I'm like "Sure" (cause I like that word) but for a minute, I thought he say my tumblr post about him being the "worst sex ever" and I was like oh shit, he gonna ask me about it. So he asks me: "So last time we met up, it was very much less that stellar. Would you like me to possibly make it up to you?" I'm like wtf, cause I was not expecting that shit to hit me. Then I'm a little confused cause I don't know that the fuck "stellar" means so I'm asking my friend and she's like: "I think he's asking if he can try again?" And I'm like oh shit. So just to clarify, I text him: "What do you mean?" and sure shit, he's like: "I mean if we met up and tried again, I could make it up for last time. I figured I'd ask cause why not." So I'm sitting here like omfg, he tripping. I could have given this nigga 800 million reasons why that shouldn't happen. Obviously, it's the middle of the night and you horny asf. Then again, it don't matter cause he could have sent this at any time. So I really sat there like: Omg, is he serious? I waited like a long ass time to reply. I replied: "I'll give it a thought" which means I ain't never gonna tell the nigga my answer cause I'm not tryna be rude. I don't want to get together with bugman again because I'm trying to be loyal to Dre, even though we ain't in a relationship. I just don't like lying to people and I just know Dre gonna ask me if I fucked somebody while I was up here. Then again, I have no obligation to Dre cause we not dating, so I could not care about it if I wanted to. But I'm trying and it's hard. There's temptation everywhere, not Bugman, not but everywhere.
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